Feeling: uncertain, anxious
Watching: King of the Hill (rewatch)
Weather: cloudy + windy, 67/45˚ F
I feel like I bounce between bouts of inspiration and dread for the present.. I get in this space of envisioning what my future can look like and taking action towards it, but I also grow more and more disillusioned with what's going on right now. Not even accounting for what's going on externally all over the world, I feel less and less connected to my job and to life in some ways. Not in a dangerously depressed way, but in a "something has to fucking give" way. I have no clue what to do but I know I have to do *something* different. I'm not sure where to start.
Actually, I'm not sure if I just don't know where to start. Deep down, I think it's simply hard to begin a journey that you know means letting go of current habits, ruts and rituals. Letting the old die is proving much harder than I anticipated.